It has definitely been awhile and I feel as though I am a different girl than the one who posted all those past entries. But that girl helped me get to who I am now.

I'm very happy. I love life and have so much hope for the future. I've met the love of my life and am continuing school to pursue my Early Childhood Education degree. I look forward to having a career, a family etc, but for once, I'm semi-content in the now. Working on the ALL the way content part. :)

Update me.... what's new on the blogsteam and in the lives of my fellow blogers?

I really really really should update this more. Here's a little update:

I'm happier, much happier. It's easier for me to trust God. I've realized that order to hope to be pursued by a man someday, I need to pursue God first and foremost.

I'm attempting this thing called patience! :)

School is just fine, looking forward to transferring next semester which will take me far away from home, either to South Carolina or Chicago! It's a little nerve-wracking, but I feel like I will grow a lot and look forward to making new friends!

I feel like I've been pretty anonymous on here, so if you'd like to know more... you can view my profile on this fat girl social networking site! Hahaha:

http://www.bbwchatzone.com/profile/Erika638

I hope all is well with you guys!

Things aren't perfect, obviously. But I feel like I'm beginning to have a better outlook on life. I finally feel like there is hope for my future and I'm excited to see where God is taking me.

Lately I've felt so lonely that sometimes it physically hurts, that's never happened before. Waiting for God's perfect plan isn't easy. But I know it will be worth it.

It occupies my mind a lot. I want someone to share adventurous with and to love. I have so much to give. I want someone to take care of, laugh with, and fight with too! I want it all.

I thought that was here, or at least the beginning of it. But it wasn't and I was hurt. More than I should have been actually. I thought I would be over it by now. I want to move on. I keep thinking that maybe he'll show up here, or there and apologize for hurting me and it will be like one of those scenes in a movie that ends with a passionate kiss.

There's the problem, I want my life to be a movie.

I wish he could know how bad it hurt. But then again, what difference would it make?

... and keep moving forward.

There's a quote by Walt Disney that I like:

“Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things… and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.”

Don't look back.