[x ]I think I'm ugly.
[x] I tan easily. (i burn easily too!)
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have braces.
[x ] I wear glasses. contacts
[x ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] i have freckles

Family/Home Life

[x ] I've sworn at my parents
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are not together
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. (does merit roll count?)
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[x] I've gotten stitches
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[posibly this fall!] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to Australia.
[ ] I've been to the Eiffel Tower.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle
[ ] I've been in a car crash.)
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi
[ ] I've watched someone die.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.i wish

Honesty/Crime

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test/quiz.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've been with someone while they were going out with someone else

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've drank alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem

Crying/Self Esteem

[ ] I am/have been anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I sometimes hate myself
[x :/] I've wanted someone to just slit my throat or kill me in some sort of way

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I used to collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

[salt shaker count] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.(
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x]I bake well
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.(!)
[ ] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.(!)
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

YOUR TURN!

so... i'm not so sure what i'm feeling right now. that's probably not good right? i think i'm starting to realize that i can do just fine on my own. i think God is telling me something. he did this on purpose, i think being a teenager it's easy to get caught up with the normal teenage drama. boys... for the most part. honestly, i think i'm starting to realize, that i'm fine just on my own. i like this feeling. knowing that all i need is God to complete me. i have yearned for this feeling for forever. i hope this lasts... i want to feel independent.

i think God is trying to help me get through a few stuggles in my life. i feel like i'm under a lot of stress... lots of decisions, lots of let downs, lots of things about myself i am not happy with. i know what god wants me to do, and all i hope is that i can do it, with God's help of course. but i heard a pastor say this last night, "If you take one step to God, he will take 100 to you.". I liked that sooo much. if we surrendur our lives to God, he will bless me in return. i need to trust, and learn how to trust, not only more trust for god. but for everone in my life. i've been let down so many times i have just figured the only cure for that is just not to trust at all. being independent is fine for awhile, but you get lonely, and more lost. we need people. no no no. we need God.

i'm not really sure what else to say. i'm not sure if i'm happy for sad.... i'm terrible at trying to figure out my feelings.

Your Birth Month is November

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years. You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian. Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love Your gemstone: Citrine Your flower: Chrysanthemum Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow

i agree with that. that makes me feel quite good about myself. so i am so excited for tomorrow no one has any idea... or could even begin to fathom.... hah! anyway, i must be going... i'm going to update the other blog now. you guys have a good one.

Haha.. this probably isn't nessasary, but I wanted to keep the other blog just for bible stuff. But, I've got a lot to get out too.

Today is such a gloomy day, ugh. And, on top of that I have a terrible headache.. don't you hate that? I sure as heck do. AND! On top of that, I have testing all this week to decide wheather I graduate or not. FANTASTIC! But this weekend should be fun. Very fun.

So I'm feeling pretty stupid. I can carry on a good conversation with this guy sometimes, and then other times it's just extremely awkward. Life is so confusing. I mean, I can't complain, I've got everything I need and 10 times more. But there's always an empty space in my heart. A hole that I feel can never be filled. And that makes me question my faith, is my faith not strong enough that I still feel a hole? God should complete me. Why do I still feel so lonely? And why do I act stupid and put up a fake me in order to not show my true feelings to the world?

Ugh.

Life.