not a big fan of the video. but its a great song.

My sister called me today to wish me luck on my new job (I start tomorrow). And we got to talking. My sister is one of my heros. She's everything I want to be, or hope to be. I find it as a huge compliment when people comment that we are alike. She's beautiful first of all, but she's just an amazing person. Her faith is so strong. This is why I was never able to understand why she never had a boyfriend or seemed interesting in having one in high school. Now, she seems to have 5 guys after her! But she still says shes not ready. She said they say "Don't date until you're ready to get married". I really don't know what to think about that one. It seems pretty impossible in our generation. I know a couple that dated eachother all through high school, never saw anyone else, never kissed anyone else. And to be honest, I don't know if I could do that. Of course I don't want a broken heart, but how could you know what's out there if you stick with one man?

I guess you'll know when you meet. People say love isn't what it is in the movies. But I don't know if that's true. I heard a guy say, that when he saw his wife for the first time... ever, he knew he would spend the rest of his life with her. Real, true, pure, intimate love is out there, I think we all just need to be patient. Everyone seems to be in a hurry with everything these days. Love is for real, nothing to be played around with.

Faith, hope and love are some good things He gave us, but the greatest is love.

P.S.- I noticed I said "People say" and "they say" in there a couple times. That's another problem....

Do not conform any longer to the patern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

-Apostle Paul

So right now I'm sitting by an open window and I can hear the rain, I love it, it's so relaxing. All sounds in nature are beautiful.

Anyway, I've been feeling down lately, so i decided to set a little goal for myself. This week I want to lose 5 pounds... I think I can do it... wait- I know I can do it. I'm going to try and lose 20 pounds by the end of October... it may be kind of much, but we'll see. I know I can do it if I put my head and heart to it. And I really have to trust God. I really don't like dieting, but honestly, who does? It's not that fun, but I'm going to keep my head up and focus on the end result!

I got my homecoming dress, and I made sure we would be able to alter it for when I lose weight. It's beautiful and I think it looks great... but I want it to look even better! And it will! Now... I just gotta find a date. Which brings me to my next thought.

What is "girlfriend material"? Is it confidence, because I'm pretty confident. Is it beauty... because I'm decently averagely pretty (averagely.... it's a new word!). Is it having a kind heart, because I'm pretty sure I have that. Or is it about sex? I mean there's got to be at least ONE guy out there not just looking for sex... at least one... I'm sure of it. It's frustrating, because I'm never going to find him, am I. He's got to be out there somewhere. Someday.

That's it. Stay tuned.

If I lay here...
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world.

Hi everyone,
Life's finally getting interesting again! I got a job, volleyball is starting and summer is ending. It's kind of a bummer. I had a lot of fun this summer and learned alot about myself. This year is going to be difficult and is going to challenge me in so many ways. So about my job. I'm going to be working at a teacher's store, so we'll see. I'm starting to make sense of life. But I've still got a lot to learn.

That's it.