Every time I hear a good sermon I learn a lot about God and quite a bit about myself as well.

I think that God wants me to give something up, and I'm trying to figure out what that is. I think that, whatever it is, that is what is standing between me and Him.

I want to be fine on my own, I don't want to have to have friends and people around me to comfort and support me. He should be enough, and I know He is, but for some reason I don't think I believe it.

Almost every night I say the same old routine prayer. THIS IS NOT GOOD. When I do decide that I want to let it all out I end up in tears and cry myself to sleep.

I've been feeling guilty. I don't want to go back to being a lukewarm Christian.

ughhhhhhhh

This my dear friends is the reason for my blog name. My real name is not Autumn nor am I from New York.

I actually didn't think about the fact that people may think my name was Autumn or that I was from New York when I made it... so I find it kind of funny.

Much love.

PSALM 77

1 I cried out to God for help.
I cried out to God to hear me.
2 When I was in trouble, I looked to the Lord.
During the night I lifted up my hands in prayer.
But I refused to be comforted.
3 God, I remembered you, and I groaned.
I thought about you, and I became weak. Selah
4 You kept me from going to sleep.
I was so troubled I couldn't speak.
5 I thought about days gone by.
I thought about the years of long ago.
6 I remembered how I used to sing praise to you in the night.
I thought about it, and here is what I asked myself.
7 "Will the Lord turn away from us forever?
Won't he ever show us his kindness again?
8 Has his faithful love disappeared forever?
Has his promise failed for all time?
9 Has God forgotten to show us his favor?
Has he held back his tender love because he was angry?" Selah
10 Then I thought, "Here is what I will make my appeal to.
For many years the Most High God showed how powerful his right hand is."
11 Lord, I will remember what you did.
Yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.
12 I will spend time thinking about everything you have done.
I will consider all of your mighty acts.
13 God, everything you do is holy.
What god is so great as our God?
14 You are the God who does miracles.
You show your power among the nations.
15 With your mighty arm you set your people free.
You set the children of Jacob and Joseph free. Selah
16 God, the water of the Red Sea saw you.
It saw you and boiled up.
The deepest waters were stirred up.
17 The clouds poured down rain.
The skies rumbled with thunder.
Lightning flashed back and forth like arrows.
18 Your thunder was heard in the windstorm.
Your lightning lit up the world.
The earth trembled and shook.
19 Your path led through the Red Sea.
You walked through the mighty waters.
But your footprints were not seen.
20 You led your people like a flock.
You led them by the hands of Moses and Aaron.

Sometimes I just need the comfort that only He can provide.

So this is song where I got the title of my blog. Listen to the words. Unfoturnetly I couldn't find JUST the music without the movie so it's like a music video for Chronicles of Narnia.


That's all I have to say about that.

So I've decided that I am so easily influenced by the people around me. I feel like my personality changes with every person I hang out with. This is bad. I don't know who I am. I don't think I'm fake... at all, but I just don't know which of those personalities I really am. And- why do I have to change my personalty for my different friends... this is weird and why am I just figuring this out?

I need to hide for awhile....

Will this disguise do?

How great is our God?

This is beauty if I've ever seen it.



The pictures are kind of repeatitive, so just close your eyes and listen. How can people deny Him... look at this world it did not happen from a bang, a boom or even a KABOOM. Not possible.