So, I'm back at school and all, and I'm feeling like a loner. I'm the girl who's friends with pretty much everyone, but has a couple close friends.

I don't trust people easily, nor do I open up easily, so I don't think the majority of the people at my school understand me at all. I feel like an outsider. I don't get wasted every weekend, and I don't smoke pot. It's just not something I'm interested in.

Tomorrow night I'm going to a party, I think I feel like I have something to prove. But at the same time I don't really want to stoop to that level.

Don't worry about me though, my friend and I have a plan, and I'm not a drunk, I drink, but I'm not a drunk... I promise.

I feel like we are way too old to feed on drama.

So today was my first day back... I don't think this year is going to be too bad. Let's hope I won't regret saying that later on this year.

I'm looking foward to this year, but a lot of people have changed. I'm kind of dissapointed by all the stories I've heard.

These girls need to learn to respect their bodies. It's sad.

I am always so amazed by this... maybe you will be too. It's a great song and a great video.

So, I'm still feeling really convicted about my last entry. It revealed a lot about me to myself. I think I realized how quick I am to judge. I've been thinking about it all day and I'm really upset.

This is another quality I don't like about myself and want to change.

I really want to post a blog, but I'm not really sure what I want to write about. Hm, this is a problem.

So... I was thinking about going back to school and everything. I think I mentioned this before. I'm not looking forward to being one of two Christians in my school. I'm also not looking forward to being around immature teenagers. I know that sounds lame. But I am so sick of the drama and the attitude of everyone. I can't exclude myself from this either, but I am so sick of the kids from my school acting like the world is against them.

They must not get it. They must not understand how freaking lucky we are. Yet they act like idoits. It's so frustrating. Why are we so concerned with ourselves.

I've noticed something. When I watch documentaries and videos of kids in Africa they are sooo happy. There's this video put out by Invisible Children (which I have mentioned before) about this boy named Sunday. He is 15 years old and has no parents. He lives by himself in a hut in a displaced camp. He hopes someday to be a doctor. He can't afford a uniform, and is not welcome in school because of that. But he is so persistent and keeps trying to go back to school. Listening to him talk and watching him live his life you begin to see what greed and ignorance has done to us.

I am never satisfied with what I have because I know that I can obtain more. I am convinced that more will add to my happiness... but it's a vicious cycle, because once you have more, you want more and then more and more.

I'm ashamed. So I guess I really can't dis my peers. I'm just as guilty. Wow, this blogging without direction worked out for my good.

Which brings me to another topic I was just made aware of...

Why do I think I'm better than other people?

Wow....