Your Birth Month is November

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years. You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian. Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love Your gemstone: Citrine Your flower: Chrysanthemum Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow

i agree with that. that makes me feel quite good about myself. so i am so excited for tomorrow no one has any idea... or could even begin to fathom.... hah! anyway, i must be going... i'm going to update the other blog now. you guys have a good one.

Haha.. this probably isn't nessasary, but I wanted to keep the other blog just for bible stuff. But, I've got a lot to get out too.

Today is such a gloomy day, ugh. And, on top of that I have a terrible headache.. don't you hate that? I sure as heck do. AND! On top of that, I have testing all this week to decide wheather I graduate or not. FANTASTIC! But this weekend should be fun. Very fun.

So I'm feeling pretty stupid. I can carry on a good conversation with this guy sometimes, and then other times it's just extremely awkward. Life is so confusing. I mean, I can't complain, I've got everything I need and 10 times more. But there's always an empty space in my heart. A hole that I feel can never be filled. And that makes me question my faith, is my faith not strong enough that I still feel a hole? God should complete me. Why do I still feel so lonely? And why do I act stupid and put up a fake me in order to not show my true feelings to the world?

Ugh.

Life.