I really want to post a blog, but I'm not really sure what I want to write about. Hm, this is a problem.

So... I was thinking about going back to school and everything. I think I mentioned this before. I'm not looking forward to being one of two Christians in my school. I'm also not looking forward to being around immature teenagers. I know that sounds lame. But I am so sick of the drama and the attitude of everyone. I can't exclude myself from this either, but I am so sick of the kids from my school acting like the world is against them.

They must not get it. They must not understand how freaking lucky we are. Yet they act like idoits. It's so frustrating. Why are we so concerned with ourselves.

I've noticed something. When I watch documentaries and videos of kids in Africa they are sooo happy. There's this video put out by Invisible Children (which I have mentioned before) about this boy named Sunday. He is 15 years old and has no parents. He lives by himself in a hut in a displaced camp. He hopes someday to be a doctor. He can't afford a uniform, and is not welcome in school because of that. But he is so persistent and keeps trying to go back to school. Listening to him talk and watching him live his life you begin to see what greed and ignorance has done to us.

I am never satisfied with what I have because I know that I can obtain more. I am convinced that more will add to my happiness... but it's a vicious cycle, because once you have more, you want more and then more and more.

I'm ashamed. So I guess I really can't dis my peers. I'm just as guilty. Wow, this blogging without direction worked out for my good.

Which brings me to another topic I was just made aware of...

Why do I think I'm better than other people?

Wow....

I am loving how care free my life is right now. I'm kind of dreading going back to school and all that. I have been around other Christians all summer and I am going to miss it so much, when I go back to school I'm on my own again. I really gotta get plugged into a group. I need community.

I got baptized yesterday. It was amazing. I was so nervous but when I came out of the water I felt renewed nothing can ever compare to that feeling. I am a new person. I hope people at school see that. I want to be the example.

Wow, I've never been this happy.

I was reading Hebrews 11 the other day. Wow, it was so encouraging! It talks about faith. I want to have faith like Gideon, Noah, Moses and Abraham, but I doubt too much. I have been praying for stronger faith. I want to trust Him with everything.

And in chapter 12 this is the first verse. One of my favorites...

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us."

I'm back and better than ever!

1. A is for age: young

2. B is for beer of choice: corona

3. C is for career right now: student

4. D is for your dog's name? it rhymes with a bad word.

5. E is for essential item you use everyday: facewash (?)

6. F is for favorite TV show at the moment: The Biggest Loser

7. G is for favorite game: any board game!

8. H is for Home town: ??????

9. I is for instruments you play: used to play- flute, drums

10. J is for favorite juice: grape

11. K is for whose butt you'd like to kick: no ones?

12. L is for last place you ate: my house

13. M is for favorite movie: Pride and Predjudice

14. N is for your name: AutumnInNY (duh)

15. O is for overnight hospital stays: a week

16. P is for people you were with today: co-workers, family, and friends

17. Q is for quote: "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning how to dance in the rain."

18. R is for Biggest Regret: i dont know

19. S is for status: single

20. T is for time you woke up: 8:30

21. U is for underwear you have on now: striped breifs :)

22. V is for vegetable you love: love??? well none then

23. W is for worst habit: washing my hands too much

24. X is for x-rays you've had: back, wrist, foot

25. Y is for yummy food you ate today: brown rice and cooked zuccini (i hate dieting)

26. Z is for the zodiac sign: Sagittarius