Waiting for My World to fall.
Let me start off by saying that I am so blessed to have two parents who love me so incredibly much. I also have everything I could possibly need time 10,000.
As I've grown up some I've realized that my perfect family isn't so perfect. I feel like we're all pretending and putting on this show. Every family is somewhat disfunctional... at least the one's I know are, so why do we have to pretend like ours isn't?
My parents don't love eachother and their is constant tension in the house because of it. My dad acts like the whole world is against him and that everything we say is to make fun of him. Depression and Alcoholism run in the family (luckily must are medicated and stay away from alcolhol... but not all). I heard that someone in my family lied about something really silly that we don't do at home to make us look good. I dont want to say specifics.
Lifes tough... everyone has a story why do we all try so hard to cover it up, I need to cry but I can't.
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Sorry to hear about your dysfunctional family = we all have one - my sister likes to say that our family took the fun out dysfunctional long time ago. I agree. Since my parents died we are trying to put the fun back in!
I hope you can find one person you can talk to about this situation - counselor at school perhaps? or Youth leader at church?
ron
as for talking to someone... i don't like opening up to people because i break down when i say what i'm feeling outloud, i don't know if i trust anyone enough to tell them all of this anyway.
i feel so silly about this. i'm just feeling sorry for myself.
thanks for the comment, ron!
hope all is going better in your world
ron
if i don't hear from you... Merry Christmas, Ron! :)
And my family did it to, especially with me. I am the dysfunction in my family, and they try to make appear that I am something I am not. Like I want to be "saved" when they know I have no intentions of returning to way of life.
And I hope that alcohol does not come into the picture. I know what it did to me, and what it is doing/going to do to my children if I don't get a handle on it.
I hope the best for you Miss Zimmie.